im feeling down again. Confused emotions.

18years of life.
Never been i begging for any passionate from anyone
except family, friends and God.

my family- less bonding
friends- currently with my ssp peeps. how they are the dedicated ones
God- im not a loyal servant. sorry god.

OhMyGosh!

what am i thinking of?
you're just super bored!
u try to quit smoking.
and u feel inferior to anyone around you.
you hide
you pulling your shirt peeping into your body
see how in different shapes in can be

"mind over body.mind over body.mind over body.mind over body.mind over body.mind over body"
The word you use to say to your cadet, remember?
why not you try those.

looking people in relationships - i feel outdated and so virgin. im begging throughout my 18 years.

looking people good in education - i'm away becoming a Einstein which i use to be

looking people good in talents - feeling stupid, i dont even play an instrument

looking people whom with attention -ok, i might be needing alot of attentions


Ya Allah, rescue me!