monday blues... again..

hmm.. went to skool in sleepy mode cuz tok to sumone on msn ..
den go here n there.. as per normal..
when go home.. saw lutfi at simei platform aboarding the train.. i hi to him ut he doesnt saw it. den go home.. n slept the whole day.. hiber nate again.. haiz.. heheheh

*yaWwWnnNN*
so sleepy buy yet can fill in my blog.

todae meet my ptn afte clz.. hehe.. eat lah.. met shuai quan, hafiz, umar, dom n mrs tan.. as per usual.. hafiz n shuai quan will tok hoa lian.. den umar will eat a lot while i n dom tok2 lah.. hehe

ate chics.. woah.. so full.. den continue to eat.. after eating.. walked to mosque wif umar.. hehe.. den met shafiq, farhan and arip.. i tot they so moody or wat..becuz of seeing me..
den i break the ice argh..

everything goes well.. keep laughing wif them.. hehe.. sort our probs.. haiz.. den reach home , angah n mama was not at home.. den i heard banging of doors.

they were preparin for angah's work party actuali.. called kak shasha.. make up.. so preetty sia my sister. seldom seeing her in woman's wear.. always in my wear sia.. haiz..
ate nai brayni for toda.e.. den polish my boots until so shiny

wee.. wish to carry on to polish sia
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yeah...
todae was quite great..
todae came claz abit late. but u cares.. as long im there.
CD was abit slack.. we did a presenttion again.. i was cock up again n again..
when im gonna perfect my public speakin?
haiz
everyone ws pretty frustrated cuz khalaf lost the ppr.. as usual..

then after CD, went to KFC and eat..
den go library.. tyme goes fast.. cant remeber it. heheh..
did my camp programme.. i finish my part.. yeh2.. atlast.. now i jus wait for my two other CIs.
heheh
den khalaf, adam, salman played dota. while razif read up sum magazines.. hehe.. i on MAXIMS song and my hip hop argh.. quite loud wif a queit ambience.. now i noe SP library is my second home.. heheh
did sum crazy stuffs wif salman.. heheh.. he's quite entertaining..

by 4.45 packed up went to mrt station.. khalaf went for rock climbin. so left 3 of us.
met umar at platform.

reach bukit baok oredi.. syahiran's msg me dat he still waiting for the bus. heheh..
nvm.. its ok.wait for him quite long argh.. then saw haidhar.. so katek sia him.. hahah..
hehe.. saw syah rushing up..
den tok2 wif him.. so long i hav a nice chat wif him.. hehe.. in da train we kept laughing sia..
tok abt gals.. mcm paham jek.. heheh..

reach YCK owedi.. den go down.. kept laughing n tok2 abt nyp..
the walkway like prison sia.. dn saw this pretty gal.. kept looking at her.. i laugh2 owedi..
saw syahirah.. she show us the way.. otw.. we get change at the handicap toilet.. we both wearing the white shirts.. remind of CIBTC.. ehe. but the thing is .. im wearing OpPositely~ heheheh..
den we walked like macho agh.. den reach owedii.. put our bags at the side.. u noe wat.. i jus neglect my laptop jus like dat.. haiz.. luckily..
the thcer for ngee ann poly saw us.. saying..
" wah CI CI came late..." i wif my sarcastic face and tone saying " kite skola"
then he say cut ur wages then u noe.. then we walked off.

saw lotsa malay.. mixture of guys n gals.. i was blinking.. heheh..
am i sure or not? mly guy intrested in this stuffs.. hehe.
then saw a squad of CITs, CIs, and CIIs. hahah.. they inside this thing. lol
hahah.. then walk2 ard.. then the mlay squad ke kanan lurs..
den saw this guy wif an krecuit hand. so i went there to adjust.
i jus lift hand genlty.. he shout like mad sia..
saying that his hand is injured.. den i kept apologizing from jus now..
den one of the guy say that they from silat.. my heart say.. so wat sia..
den one of the guy look like SUhendi.. so ipat his back n jus noe that its not him.. lol..
so the similar sia.

den saw my SPians.. hehe.. esp hafiz n wei zhang.. kept smiling. lol.. den disturb them..
distub them.. hehhe.. then tok2 wif KIm.. she's so funny.. kept practising our hormt..

den they formed up togther.. then bersurai..
i say bye to the NP guys and gals..
den riliks a bt while disturbing Amira..
den go to AMK central..
woah.. otw there.. kept laughing wif kim n syahiran..
hehhe
then reach macd.. tok alot wif kim..
the AMk central looks like bedok central sia.. haha.. n sumore its more livier.. woah.. not bad argh.. i n kim kept critisicing simon.. dat idiot bastrd.
den went off.. abah fetch us.. nair.., kai n hiran..
in the car kept laughing again...

reach home..smack all foods. chic drumlets, n nasi tunjuk2..
den releks.. tok to my *ehem*

*ehem* said wanna break.. i was pretty sad.. i didnt force to stay..
but *ehem* leave me .. haiz..
aku tetap ukirkan senyuman utkmu walapun terasa kehangatan air mata yg sedang mengalir membasahi pipiku.. haiz..

will there be any kind souls whu will step forward to giv me a helping hands..

i seriously nids help..

ferst: there's nth for me to stress abt skools.. jus all the attitudez... the perangais of those guys..

for example khalaf.. he simply irritates me.. hmm.. will distrct pple.. then will make us spoonfed him..
den khai.. he's been an input rather than an output..
he jus simply watch time pass by slowly and clear...

guys.. i noe that i hav been a happy go lucky pple..
but this person also hav thier difficulties..
im so sad.. im hurt inside... im trying to cover the sadness behind my smiles.
i noe there's no specific word to describe my feelings..

then read horoscope few days back.. don believe it at ferst..
one of the phrases says , " usually hav many fwens.."
hmm... it sounds so not me.. i got lotsa frens
jus get to noe that the im a bit out from the big 5.. not a bit argh.. a lot
like a shadow.. hmm..

when im in da library.. arip kol me whether i brought my laptop or not.. den i say i dont.. he were wif farhan n fiq...haiz..
saw farhan .. when taking ablution.. tok to him as if im toking to 1st tyme we met... same goeas to syafiq when pass by when im goin to convection hall..
haiz...

im feelin like crying now.. hu cares.. cryig doesnt limit to gals.. its for boys to.. i shudnt bottle up my feelings.. i donch no y..i hav to tell someone.. luckily adam was there wif me to listen to my probs..

hmm.. did my c prgramming test.. not bad argh.. heheh..
haiz.. wat to do;... standard..
got aids tok.. video abt having sex.. watch it wif my new fwens ard me
mardiah was bside me.. her class mate jus get to know each other.. well.. its great.. i hope i ha a great days ahead..
0126

heeeeee!!!!!

todae wake up at 10am..
hmm.. so sad.. myy mad caught me red handed man.. i watched ehem ehem.. haha..
hav to tell white lie..
hmm.. got lotsa sin sia..
need to do smth gud to lift up my sin n replace wif credits..

haiz... den go to skul..
saw idrus .. but i walked in front of him like model.. donch noe if he saw me argh..
heheh.
den take lift go up..
saw this gal argh whu standing at the buttons there.. i tok to her argh..
" picit tingkap lima"... she oso n press.. i said " Thanks"
den hakeem was disturbing me..
hehe smack my nenepok.. heheh
i oso disturb argh..
hmm.. the gal was standing in front of me argh. suddenly smell stench from her head..
eeee!! her inner head scraf smell sia ... fuh Yohhh.... get out ffrom the lift den take a few deep long inhale..
haha

..., during class den.. Mr lee was about to annouce the result for the lab test...
haiz... i n adam owedi shake head cuz we scared argh.. adam got 50.. by rite he shud failed argh..
den my guy fwen suddenly giv me a sharp look.. i was blur.. den naim came to me.. wah.. high mark argh..
i was shock argh.. not reli high mark... i got 90 out of 100...
woah... heheh.. actualli i start at the laz eight min of the duration... cuZ during the test.. got a lot of error argh,,
hege....was relieve..

hmm.. finish skul saw nisha n aishah.. tok crap wif them...
den met my gang.. now i abot eft out aghh.. haiz.. can tok more wif shikin owedi.. lol..
the thing is dat i noe her thru my mom fwen .. that is her daugter lah..
if u understand wat i saying argh...

lol... hmm they got meeting abt taman ilmu..
haiz.. they even say.. u joining isit.. hmm
then hey tok2. i dun like adin very well..
when i solat ferst.. i heard he sayin.. knaa die sembhyg dulu.. haiz.. shit argh... wanna kick his face sia.. but i hav to calm myself.. haiz..

den quickkly go home to mit my fwens.. walk home n walk back to tamp int macd.. tired..
bought milkshake.. heheh. so long sia nvr drink dat.. den drink while walking to macd..
den tok2 wif dwm.. can mix wif hiran well enf owedi.. heheh.. even the other CIs..

den go back home n rez.. tired sia.. heheh.. wanna do my unt stuffs lah.. k bubye..
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MondaY bLueEsS..

heheh.. As per Normal MornIng rouTine Wif Y father Again tHaTs wiShes To waKe me Up
lol
den My Mom cOoked Me a siew mAi hOtdoG bread Roll.. goSh .. waT a Long Name..
den slept in the car when otw to skool.. Hehehh

hehehe.. for lUnch brEak... sAt a fC 5 .. hehe. tok Abt gals and sex..
nAim waS a Kiddo .. kEep shakinG his head When Listening.. lol
wat to Do.. boys wiLl b Boys..

den wat i did is to cover his ears.. his Gus Is scaRy fUnnY ( Been TranslAted From Mly word-
klaKar serAm)

lol
aCtualLI my stOmach Been Makin TrouBle for The whOle daY.. Jus Bear It..
MInd Over Body --> i hate this werd Mann..
the Shit Jus GEtTing slIppIer at the End Of My anAl.. if pple Anal me, cnFerm c Melted Chocs... hahahah

afTer skUl went back Home.. saw rashid alIght At simei.. My senior.. the one hu choses me..
den saw imam at Tamp.. sO The ArrOganT sia... den saw Hanafi aND Nad.. hhehe.. Aking Fun oF my hair.. bAd hair day .. lol... Den sAw Jun HUi. hahhaha. Im so PoPuLar Mann.. ahHAhahAHHAhaha nyAHhah

haiz... went back home n ChillZ.. suzana Pm me sAying That wed Got SSP.. HooRay!!!
sAng siNga PurbA!! PErwiRA PolYtecNic siNgapUra!!!
heheh.. quite happy .. now dunno wat to do.. jus browse pple's profile..
heheh... i tInk i wAnna Do mY tutoRial .. hehehe
bUbye.. MuacksSss
Tmr meet Khairul ANd discuss abT unit camp sumore.. GettIng piSs of day By day abt this fucker campp..
Cant wait For mY SYF cont17.. MY arEA massS POP.. my ATC.. heheh.. n JAM 06 bABies!! at last im a senior
23.06 MOnday

SundAYY
WeEEe.. sori mom for bad mouthing u in da blog...

hhehheheh.. btw sun was quite ok.. ToOk sUbsuKa from CIk aTi Place..
she"s my Fav aUnt.. So funnY..lol
she cOoks For me cuz I pass My O level.. hMmm>. was So lOng agO..

haiz..i tot we gona eat at Sakura Int BufFet.. bUt... soB sob.. It was FullY bOok..
haiz.. went to MarsIling den eaT at There..
The Waitress was So old.. N she's Like duN wan To take Order..
her Mouth wIll be TwiSted at The side.. Walk veri Slow Sumore..
when we Ask For receipts.. she TwistEd Her mOUth More Sia..
haiz...

den went to Bik Ila hs.. she's pregnant.. Our InstinCt tHat her Baby wiLl be A twIn.. lol

Then wEnt hm n prePare For mY skL tmr...

g mamPOs argh. aku aku aku.. kau ngat kau apa
every ear mcm tu..
kata tk kasi bunga lah.. tk kasi present.. siapa yg buat mother's day tu wujud itu bodoh.. bodoh.. jus a stupid day they ake it so grant..
everyday is special mah..
aku ingat laz year die mepek2 . buat perangai .. bile.. on my exam. the next day was my Exam.. kurang ajr.. slalu ckp nk kuar rumah... tp tk pun..
kalau marah... mulut tk berhenti.. main shoot aje.. huhuh.. i wanna cry.. wanna shout.. wana kick everything.. hmm.. die ckp aku tk pedulikan agama.. ferst thing die dulu tk pernah msk kan.. n skrg aku tunggu die mskkan aku tau.. die buat tak endah jek.. haiz... ARGHHHH..
WAt THE FUCK... haiz.. sedih sak.

wahal seorg insan..

AKu diLahirkan di dunia ini dgn begitu suci skali
aku merupakan seperti kaiN putih yg lebar yg di kibar2 ke awana
pabila ku berlahir, aku menangis.. tetapi, manusia2 yg tidak kukenali ketawa riang ria..
aku menagis tp mereka ketawa.. bukan perbutan itu tidak sopan.
pabila aku celik mata ku.. aku nampak Seorg wanita yg skrg dikenali sebagai ibu..
seOrg pula YG mengazan ke subang telinga ku merupakan pula ayahku..
aku yg merupakn seperti kain yg sgt putih itu skrg sudh dilakar oleh mereka..
adakah ia bermakna aku kotor.. bukan ... aku dilakar dgn warna yg cantik sekali..
ia merupakn kasih dan syg.. duniawi dn ukrahwi..
setiap kali ku tangis, kau akan medodoi kan ku..
pabla aku ketawa, kau pula akn turut bersama..
hari semkin hari aku dewasa.. dtg pula setitik nila hitam yg jatuh ke kain yg bersih itu..
dan HAri semakIn hari.. tiada benteng utk memberhentikan nila hitam itu.. jatuh buKan setitik demi setitik.. tetapi setumpah demi setumpah..
Ibu..kau lah pengubat segala mcm.
dgN kuAsa engkau.. menukar segala2nye..
kau Memberi aku perangsang.. jiwa dan raga..
syurg terletak di bw telapak kaki ibu.. pernah mendgr? ya.. ia slalu keluar drpd bujur mulut smua org.. tp.. ia hanya kata pepatah yg biasa.. ia seperti tiada nilai..
merek memaki hamun, pukul dn rampas harta2.. kejam bukan...
wahai ibuku.. mudah2an aku tdk terserong kpd gejala2 itu ..
siapa yg berkuasa.. ibu bkn.. ibu dtg 3 kali sebelum ayah..
pabila sudah pejam mata, ku harap org akan menangis dan aku pula ketawa..

todae wOKe uP so earlY siA.. Sure Or not..

WOke At at 6 But KEpt SleePing BAcK aGain.. ahha..
MY faTHer PUll mE.. I pUll mYselF down Ato gravIty.. HE tickLe mE.. i Wack Him uP usINg mY leg.. he beaT Me .. I Bash Im Up.. hehehe
aS pr NoRmal.. oUr rouTIne.. hahaha

den WaKe Up n pRePare EveryThing..
wEnt oFf n mEt ZaiD oTw..

reAch CCS n starT the cOurse.
iT was ReallY intrSting. BUt D05 hAv to Take The CI sqUad..
a bIt awKward Argh.. hehe.. Jus do My best.. rasidah And me jUs saY anY coMmand THat wiLl do.. raudah Was The One Hu is Enthu sia...

den drIll cane Instruct by JoeYee.. he's a bIt lame Argh.. J05 bUt forgOt thIer DriLls..
heheh.. Thn MOve On tO flAg And slOw march.. itS a bIt fuNny cuz every CI do The foOtdrill... Herman Was Nice todae.. fiNallY i can Mix Wif HIm sia.. Thx God.. i dun waNNa keep qUareLling wif HIm..

den we end of WIf a Big lOud ArEa 9..
sheikh, lUppy, a Boon, AssRul, Raudah, rAsUdah And ME were The lAz one to lEave The sKool... but it rains heavIly.. no choiCe But to Wait..
But remeMberd That In the NprOom.. Got pOnchos from the caMp[craFt coMp.. we took It and preapre Off.. everyone waS cute lOr.. where In da Hell That wiLl be wearnG ponchos duriNG rainY seasOn .. exCept Small kids.. Lol

actUalli AT the BottoM part oWedi Wet Lor.. m soCks Are soGgy.. i Hate That MAn.. shIUd briNg my slIppers in da ferst place..

we Ate At KFc and went hOme.. wa lOahh..
reach Home.. Bathe and slEep.. slEep from 3 plus to 8.. wa lOAh..
everyDay hIbernATe sia.. haiz..

jus now saw a malay couple quarreling..
the gal was standing by the road side.. n the guy siiting on his bike. seems ready to go of..
heard they saying ,"u yg bwk i ke sini kn.. u nk i kuar ngan die kan.."
huhuhhuh.. then the guy went off wif his bike.. the gall was preety confused n sad lorh.. she croos the road.. keep hailing for texsi but then nvr manage too..
in the end she aboard the bus argh..

if i was her.. i would standing at the bustop and wait for him sia.. i would cry.. haiz.. now Im feelIng emO..

SHoPpINg spReE....
hey hey Hey..

Well dId nth In The mOrninG except gettin prepare for my fridae pryers...

wel.. tot of cathing up session wif my olf fwens.. but they all So weAk sia.wanA Go home..
WeAk SIa U oll....haiz

No exception but nId to go home too.. Play wif My lAptop And Go off to ExPO..

Well.. quiTe bored.. Im iN the cooL mode.. I wore mY sweAter And lOok Kool.. well i noe iT wilL be Cold In The expo hall N the skY loOk bLack actulli.. Jus getTin prepAre..

wHen reach Expo.. My dAd n I weNt to GentleMen side Rgh..

str away Im eYeing At the bOxxer.. cooL urgh.. hehe.. actualli ettin more shy if mY parents Will choSe for mE one... heheh.. OoOoHh.. cooL BOxers.. I like chEckers..
samBiil2 cUci mAta.. heheh (yanTi and Julie, U shud NOe)

lol.. den Go fiND my Mom..
p.s: i cAnt fInd mY momm... Baceuse coiNcidenTally every mkck2 down Dere Wear Green scraf n even a pantsuit.. haiz.. den found my mom..

i kol jUlie uSing my Dad's Phone as My mom Taking a Lotsa Tyme to ShoppINg... Haiz..
after tHe fone.. I turn BAck n nvr see them as i walk so far away from them when im ONline..
actualli searching for tHAt place for 4 tymes actualli.. n im quite shy going up and down of BRA bOoth.. heheh

BeeN searchIng them, But nvm.. i stay cool in My coOl mode.. pReTEnding lOokinG at Those Things.. KOl my MOm pHone few Tyme But its uSelEss..

Felt Tears conceAled mY eyes.. feel Like goiN to InformatIon couNter n surrender Myself That im lost... i lost my pAwents..
woNdering... " Ladies And Gentlemen, there's a small announcement.. a 17 year old grown Up guy lookiNg for his parents.. wearing slack jeans wif green sweater.. ( ThAts me)..can the parent pls come forward to collect your child.."
OMG, im DreamIng aGain.. BUt im cOol..

saW them in fact n wait for My mom to coMplete hEr roUnds..
den When to IndonEsia gallery and wedding..
Saw syEd azMIr actUAlli..
ArgHhHHh.. my MOm ask me to take A sNap of Him.. he's iN the weddiNg suit..
OH gosh.. r u kiddiNg.. a Guy fancy takiNg a Artist Picture.. Oh.. So the FanAtik..
heheh...

den finishes my prayers, we leave Mom as My dad n I waNNa senT my Sis to Werk.. actuaLi.. we Went to sEarch fr her.. But She WenT miSsNg agAIn..
she Walks slow but when shOppIng.. her petit lEg changes automaticallY to roLler bLAde. hahahahahahah.. cant c her.. we lost her again
Mayb i shUD hav StrinG attaches to her bOdy or i go to InfoRmatioN counter Again.. lol

urgh.. we leave her n sent my sis to werk..den we fetCh my mom.. den we hav dInner and QuickLy Went home of Jus because WanNA watch LAILA ISABELLA. heheh.. dats all.. haiz.. its quite fun todae... hehehe

halOooO everyone..



Btw GUys.. Today For Cd cLaz PreSentatIon.. Im bIt coCk up sia.. ActauLli i Jus did Some PRepAratIon earliEr... Nah.. It was aCtuAlli doNE 15 mINs B4 The clAss Which I diD in The mRT.. quiTE shAcky BUt mAnAge ATO cMplEte IT siA... BUt it Went OK argh...

AS pER nORMal, I cANt do a PropER PubLic SpeAkIn SO i KeEP stuTtErIng.. HEhHH.., Lol... BuT thEN The TchEr Ask Naim And AdAm How We choSe The ArticLE, THey hAv to KeEp TellIng whITe lIEs.. IF noT theY Will NOt gEt poINts.. lol...

heheh.. AfTEr clasS.. WEnT to clIfFF.. KhalAf iNsiSts oN dOIng There InstEad of THe lIbrAry.. Haiz.. I sMelt SomtHinG fisHy buT nTH hAppenN actuAli.. HelpEd RazIfF wiF hiS preP maThs cUZ he DOesnT tOok A mAThs B4.. QUite Ok Argh.. DEN WeN homE ..

Otw.. I sAw Agill... * aHhHHhHHh.. Mish This GUY*
lol.. WHn HOme WalkINg.. heeh.. KeeEp POstIng abT eAch Other Status.. n reAchHOme..

haiz.. I woNDer Y i nVr geT a devIlish and gud LookIng clAssmAte.. It wiLl reZFlect me As Well to B Gud LooKinG pErsoN.. hAiz.. FeEl gud zto hav Sum clAss MAte tHAt can LepAk
How i wish I caN sLImmer n BcoME cAsaNOva..
*pIAk... Mus B dreAming*

lOl.. heheheh 0245

JuliEeEe .. I mIss u so mUch mY dEar Gal..
Btw.. She's My besTes of freN dat i evEr had.. kNows MY deEpest SecrEts.. Well.. gAl.. i mis The HAng out And The lUghter That u evEr shOwn me B4.. weLll.. this iS my comPLiment to You...

n oso Yanti.. Ohh.. the mAkcik kIte yg Kepoh niE.. aHAhhaHHAh

JUlie.. I u C thiS... I mis U n Would WannA spenT my timE wif u Hanging ARd..

lol.... hehhe...

wEll, Well, wellLLl....

hAd slEpt 5 in da Orning todAe.. *piAk*

HehhehH... TryinG to PEster awaY my daD whu is TRying TO wake Me up
he Tot i got skUl at 8 BUt actIali I got cLas At 1pm...

hehehe.. well, wokE up 10 n den St awAy watCh cArtoon..
*blUeK, so LOn siA nvr Watch CartooN*

heheh... Den I SeT ofF for SKul.. Met JUlianI, AishAh n her Fwen along The wAy..

Den i Went bdk To mit AdaM .. So hAkeEm aloNg the Way..
KhaLAf Was Late mAnnn... hahaha

hahHAHhh.. den The lEcture Abt diGital EleCtroNIcs Was quiTe toUgh acTuali..
HAiz... sCattEr bRains...

dEN go Home n Buy mIlksHakes... Hehehh. mY fav..
Will BUy thAt at LEst 3 Times In de WeEk...

Hehhehe.. den Reach HOme stR awaY i slepT througHout until 11 PLus.. wa Loaw... am i so Tored That i slepT like A log.. nVr pRay or hav a Bath.. Lol...
ok ok.. dats Alll...

IM tirEd agAin..
Go to skUl at 8 and might Goin to MI for sYf trainng... jus mSg syahIran.. he sAid got tRainer oWedi.. waT the fcUk.. he 's bCome moRe aRroGant sia...
0051.. wed 10.05.06